On The Move Again

Posted on Thursday, February 4th, 2010 at 12:01 pm

We are headed to LA on Saturday. Stuff has been happening with my family. First we lost a close family friend a  few days ago. She had been friends with my parents since before any of us girls were born. Her name was Irma Crow. For the longest time I thought we were related, just based on the closeness of our families. I thought she was my aunt, and her kids were my cousins. Anyway, she had scleroderma and cancer. She suffered a lot and for a long time. But it still came as a shock when it did happen.

And then a couple of days later, my grandma ended up having to go to the ER because of how ill she felt. It turned out she had a host of other problems apart from the tumors they recently found (and probably as a cause of them). She had a bacterial infection in her blood that could have soon caused sepsis, she has gall stones, and her liver function was not up to par. She was also dehydrated. Anyway, it all sums up to something very bad. At her age, I cannot imagine her having much more time. The tumors are likely not treatable, because the cure is worse than the disease. The doctor figures 6 months at the most.

And yesterday my sister Natalia went under the knife to have a lump removed. Signs point to it being nothing, but with my older sister Marcela dying of cancer at age 31, any little thing seems terribly ominous. All day I kept thinking the worst. We won’t have the biopsy results until next week, but everyone seems optimistic.

The last few days have been hard, and although I am trying to keep my chin up for the girls, there are moments when it all just hits me very hard and I just feel this overwhelming sadness and depression. Yesterday in the middle of ballet, with all the activity and “Oh, how cute!” smiles all around me I kept tearing up and had to go outside several times to compose myself. It was very inopportune, but I seriously could not help it.

I think I would have felt better had I been to church on Sunday and taken Communion, but Violet was too sick and I had to take her to Urgent Care. I have been praying, but I really need to get to church to find some strength and solace in the Sacred Species. Maybe this Sunday I can make it to St Therese for the Extraordinary Form.

Anyway, I am looking forward to getting to my family but not to the upheaval traveling causes me. Travel adds a different stress while being close to everyone takes stress away. Funny.

Well, here are a couple of pics from ballet and other things that have been going on. I have been too closed up in my own world to post recently but I figured I better do it before I leave, or it will never get done.

Ivy's first official haircut

Ivy's first official haircut

The Princess and the Pea from last week's ballet class

The Princess and the Pea from last week's ballet class

A tender sisterly moment

A tender sisterly moment

Violet's first pony ride

Violet's first pony ride

Ivy was very excited about getting to ride a pony again

Ivy was very excited about getting to ride a pony again

Violet curled up in Phillip's arms and stayed like this for a while, just staring at him.

Violet curled up in Phillip's arms and stayed like this for a while, just staring at him.

This week was Little House on the Prairie

This week was Little House on the Prairie

I loved those little bonnets!

I loved those little bonnets!

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16 Responses to “On The Move Again”

  1. Sara says:

    Wow. I don’t even know what to type. Your family is going through such hardship right now and it seems unending for the time being. That lump found on Nat must be scaring the crap out of her. John and I will offer up extra prayers for her as well as your family friend Irma and your g-ma.

    I really pray that you find solace during all of this mess and are able to relax in the company of your family. Also, I hope you make it to Mass this weekend. Even if it’s not the EF, I hope you still go. I know how you feel about the NO, but I really haven;t been to any masses in San Gabriel or Alhambra or Montebello where the Consecration is not valid.

    Also, I’m gunna call you anyway today but thought I’d comment so you know somebody’s listening.

  2. Laura says:

    I love you so very much – I’m glad I got to see you yesterday, I wish it was under different circumstances … See you soon!

  3. Chris says:

    I just wanted to let you that I’m praying for your Grandma and Natalia. Try to keep your spirits up, though I know it’s not an easy task.

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